Constant Pursuit of God... Hope for the Unhappy Christian

I never felt so alone in my entire life- just now. I felt so scared and doubtful. Maybe it's because of the sins that I've been committing and the my act stubbornness towards people and towards God  keep me away from Him. I can't help myself but to cry out to God for mercy. I'm praying that the God of Heavens sees me and rescue me from this brokenness and emptiness that I felt inside. This turmoil inside me is what keeps me from being miserable and keep me away from God.

The struggle inside me is what makes me fighting. Fighting the spiritual battle. Fighting against the enemies realms.  This time, I wanna make right with God. This is the prayer of my soul. For God to intervene... because honestly, I cannot fight and win this battle. Exodus 14:14 The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still. Our discontentment leads to wishful but hopeless (and sometimes suicidal) thinking. But know that God is continually pursuing us. He won't give up on us. Our only hope of curing this discontentment and unhappiness is learning the art of contentment and embracing a biblical view of God. Those two things are essential for our joy.
I have a lot of things to say but my words is not enough to contain the weighs of my heart.
Just continue to believe and pray. God is with us to fight this internal battle. Trust in Him.
Keep going everyone. God bless. :)