Maam Ling

 Thank God, I got the chance to blog again, since it's a long weekend and it's a holy week. While blogging, I'm also enjoying my night music sound trip. It is very motivational and therapeutic. Listening to the music every  night could ease the feeling of sadness, loneliness, but many times it triggers the feelings. Whatever it is, I just love the feeling listening to the sound of music.Music helps us reminisce some great memories that fades away. The lyrics of the songs could penetrate the deepest portion of your heart. One day, I dreamed to play one musical instrument. I just love the feeling to play an instrument. Forget the people around and simply lost in playing the song. If I could really master the piano or keyboard that would be very fantastic. I would probably bring it where ever I go. With the help of miko case , I could play everywhere. It would be very convenient for me to carry. Oh, I hope somebody could teach me how to play at least one musical instrument. I

I never felt so alone in my entire life- just now. I felt so scared and doubtful. Maybe it's because of the sins that I've been committing and the my act stubbornness towards people and towards God  keep me away from Him. I can't help myself but to cry out to God for mercy. I'm praying that the God of Heavens sees me and rescue me from this brokenness and emptiness that I felt inside. This turmoil inside me is what keeps me from being miserable and keep me away from God. The struggle inside me is what makes me fighting. Fighting the spiritual battle. Fighting against the enemies realms.  This time, I wanna make right with God. This is the prayer of my soul. For God to intervene... because honestly, I cannot fight and win this battle. Exodus 14:14 The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still. Our discontentment leads to wishful but hopeless (and sometimes suicidal) thinking. But know that God is continually pursuing us. He won't give up on us. Our only hope

Do you find comfort in food? Well, food is the most primitive form of comfort for many people. Sometimes, when we are broken hearted and depressed we can find comfort in the food that we eat. I am not a fan of eating. I don't eat a lot. I always go in a restaurant because of its ambiance. But when I'm alone, food is the best buddy I can have. They are like bestfriends to me. The best part when I'm stressed is that I walked and wander around the city and when I get tired, I eat. I'm a typical loner who loves to eat by myself, but feels scared to eat in restaurant especially if it's my first time there. I thank God for restaurants. I thank them for inventing food. Yes, it's pathetic  to"eat and cry" at the same time but I've tried it many times. While many really wants to find someone they can talk to when their sad and lonely, but me? I prefer to be alone and eat. Being silent and savouring the  food that I prefer to eat alone is one of the best fee