Random Thought: Building Up The Destroyed Walls
Everything is falling apart, all of a sudden, it collapsed in front of me and I can't do something about it.I felt the pain and agony inside me.I couldn't express and tell how does it happen? I couldn't explain the feeling.The sad fact. Even this blog couldn't express how I felt right now. It's blue. I am alone. Lonely. In this place, I became a stranger. Nobody understands. I couldn't explain myself and nobody cares to ask. Help is nowhere to be found! Then I began to build up my walls again (again!). In this wall... I can keep myself from people who wants to hurt me. In this wall... I am aloft and nobody will see it. So, these walls stand tall. I want to build it to protect myself from hurting. Anytime they might destroy me, but all I want is to hide in this huge wall. God wants it to be remove... but I won't because,.. I am still hurting. In some point, He's asking me to remove it in order for me to be healed. But this odd rebellious feeling craving