An Overly Obsessed of Order is a Disorder
At first I don't really have the idea about this kind of disorder, but I think it's getting worse. My friends and I usually crack jokes about it. We call ourselves "OCs" whenever we do or perform some projects. When we pay attention into details, we call ourselves "OC".
What is OCD? (for you to understand what I'm talking about). Thanks to Google I found the perfect definition... "
"Obsessive–compulsive disorder (OCD) is an anxiety disorder with intrusive thoughts and repetitive behaviors due to fear or paranoia. It can produce uneasiness, apprehension, worry (obsessions), aimed at reducing the associated anxiety (compulsions), or a combination of such obsessions and compulsions." This means it is an anxiety disorder characterized by uncontrollable, unwanted thoughts and repetitive, ritualized behaviors you feel compelled to perform. If you have OCD, you probably recognize that your obsessive thoughts and compulsive behaviors are irrational – but even so, you feel unable to resist them and break free.
Compulsions are behaviors or rituals that you feel driven to act out again and again. Usually, compulsions are performed in an attempt to make obsessions go away.
Most people with obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) fall into one of the following categories:
Washers are afraid of contamination. They usually have cleaning or hand-washing compulsions.
Checkers repeatedly check things (oven turned off, door locked, etc.) that they associate with harm or danger.
Doubters and sinners are afraid that if everything isn’t perfect or done just right something terrible will happen or they will be punished.
Counters and arrangers are obsessed with order and symmetry. They may have superstitions about certain numbers, colors, or arrangements.
Hoarders fear that something bad will happen if they throw anything away. They compulsively hoard things that they don’t need or use.
In my case, I'm afraid, but I noticed that I fall under "counters and arrangers". I have this impulsive that constantly organize things in a certain way. I always keep things in order. I keep things in it's proper place. You might think that it's normal. We all want order and cleanliness as always. But for me, Seeing some things not in place or messed and failing to do it (arranging it) causes me frustrations. My family members at home failed to understand my need of order. I nag and get mad most of the time if I see things on the bed, objects on the floor, disarrange rugs, unthrown trash inside the room and etc. And I got frustrated every time I see disorder. At that moment, I feel that there is an urgency to clean and arrange it over and over again- even if I'll be doing it for forever. And also observed that often times I washed my hands... oh no, I hope it's not another symptom. :(
I felt sorry for my family for being this way. I just can't help it. I know it's all in the mind. But my emotions and feelings are already affected. I don't know when it started and I don't know how to stop it. If you have the same situation and if you go through the same things as mine, you are very free to comment. You might be a great help. If you already overcome this disorders, then, your helpful tips are very welcome here.
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