Maam Ling

Christmas is my favorite season. I don't know, its in the Christmas spirit that makes my heart feels so glad. Maybe because this is the time of the year where all your family members gather together and celebrate the season. Relatives and old friends are reunited in Christmas parties and other get-together gathering. Aside from that, this is the time where I can have a long break from all the stresses in work. What I love about this break is that I can always find time for myself- to do the things that I failed to do during regular days.  I can have my "me time" and I can do whatever I want to do. So here it is, I've already planned out my "To-Do Over a Christmas Break Checklist". So, to start things of, I got  list of activities. I put check mark ( ✓  )  to the accomplished tasks and x for the things I haven't done yet. ✓    1. Do some general cleaning - Do the sweeping, clean my room, wash clothes, clean my bedding, bags and etc. I got this "OCn

I miss someone who isn't mine to miss. I dream about someone who isn't mine to dream about. I love someone who isn't mine to love. He's too far from me now. I was never been a part of his life, nor in his plans and dreams. I was never in his mind or in his heart. It breaks my heart because I can't even express my love for him. I can't even say he is the one that I LOVE. I want to take good care of him, love him and live the rest of my life with him. He is always been in the heart of my prayers, praying to  God to make his dream come true. I want him to be happy in his life and be the man he wants to be. I want him to live the dream- even if I'm not part of it. After all, true love is not selfish. It is about being happy for someone's happiness. "Unrequited love does not die; it's only beaten down to the secret place where it  hides, curled and wounded." -Elle Newmark So I wrote a letter for you as part of my healing and this will be the las

Everything that we go through in life is just a part of the process, it's part of God's plan. Sometimes we think that life is so unfair, life is so cruel and some things don't happen just the way we want it. Hold on... we'll go through it. Everything will be unfolded in the right time, just the way God wants it and it will be beautiful. Wait, God's in the process of molding us, making us into a better person. I would say I'm a pessimist in some way. I always think that I can't do it and I will never make it. I have certain things and plans that I want to do in my life, but at the back of my mind... it will fail- I'll never make it. I hate myself for being this way. God has many good things and promises, but believing and holding on to it is such a hard thing to do. I always search for proof and evidences before I believe. I still need someone to push me forward for me to do it. I have no enough agility to stand up and do it. But God who is so gracious, k